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Blog 69 - 11:36pm

anji almost burnt her house down.

i be tired.
liek rlly tired.

totally had FUN today.
didnt go to biopsych. f-ck.

went to anji's. brawled. barnesandnobles. playedagame. FUN.
anji bought me a sketchbook and a doll thing! :D
THANKS ANJI! o 3O

now, im at home....being tired and lame and whatnot.

i finally chose a name for O.jay. it's Oria:

The girl's name Oria \o-ria\ is a variant of Aura (Latin) and Oriana (Latin), and the meaning of Oria is "wind; sunrise".

now, i have to tie her name to her personality. xD

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

i really like someone right now and i totally do not have a shot with her. not in a million YEARS.
the feeling of knowing that this person will never accept my feelings is just getting to me. it really sucks. and the fact that im letting this affect is soooo totally stupid and just...LAME.

i am a very lame person.

i think, my body is punishing me for my mentality. if not, then God is punishing me.
God is always punishing me.

i swear. i am fine... physically. its just...my mind is causing me to be tired. i have like no energy to really do anything. and im always sighing. im also really unmotivated.

i sometimes wonder WHY IN THE WORLD i fell for her. i knew nothing would EVER happen between us, yet i couldnt help myself. why? why? why? why? why?

why am i feeling this way?
why...her?

why does she make my heart race whenever i see her?
whenever i speak to her?
whenever i think of her?

it makes me sad whenever im reminded that she has already found the love of her life. but now, all i can do is wish her the best of luck. no, i do not need to. i know their love will last forever.

i just wished i had a chance with her...
she's a love i will never be able to experience.



im sorry this is so choppy. i just need to jot some things down. xD


Blog end - 12:15pm

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