Nov 26, 2011

Am I delusional?

You really do look like her.

Who else has the same name and is of the same age and ethnicity?

Its been so long. Maybe I'll see you on Christmas Eve since I am going to your city on that day. How are you doing?

I have no doubt that she is either your aunt it your grandmother.

Nov 23, 2011

Its one hour before Thanksgiving and what am I thankful for?

A lot of things. Mostly for being saved by my Jesus and for God giving me all the days I have lived and will live in years to come. I'm also thankful for my amazingly awkward family. Thee are times when we don't get along but we pull through. With out my family, I don't think I'll ever be the person I am today.

I also very thankful for my wonderful friends. Though we may not be extremely close, they provide that social aspect in my life the I need. Honestly, without the friends I have right now, I would be super emo and anti-social. Even though I am already kinda anti-social. Haha

Now, none of my blogs would be complete without mentioning my professors who have inspired me so much.

First, Professor Hokerson. She gave me the hope I needed even though it was cliche. WIthout her support, I would never have confessed to my youth group about my raging struggles with my gender and sexualty. She was right; It does get better.

The other professor I'd like to thank is none other than Dr. Murakami. He provided that inspiration I needed to pursue a career similar to his. I simply admire him so much it's almost as if I'm in love with him. Not that I am. I mean I could be but he is way too old. And married. I digress. I'm just so grateful to have such a powerful accomplice.

Other than that, I'm just thankful to have this itouch. Ever since my laptop broke, I've been using this to surf the web. It's a good investment. Lol

Well, happy thanksgiving!! Don't forget to count your blessings! (: <3

Nov 16, 2011

Oh, people.

I'm so annoyed with them right now. I'm so tired of dealing with a select few and I believe I'm caring less even more than before.

I'm also mad all the time. Idk whats up but those ppl I don't want to talk to
need to leave me alone.

Nov 8, 2011

What is this?

Last night I had a dream about someone I haven't spoken to or seen in a long long time. It was weird but it was very pleasant. We just sat and chit-chatted and then I went off to the bathroom with someone. That someone was another person I adore but he randomly disappeared. I came back to the table but my friend was gone. What was left in her place was a letter with a Jamba Juice card(since she apparently worked there) and a number on the envelope. Then I woke up.

I think old feelings are starting to back up again. Or at least, I really do miss her. Maybe I should just attempt to talk to her once again.

Nov 6, 2011

I'm all over the place.

I've realized that I'm on so many different social websites. From Facebook to Twitter to Tumblr to here, it just never ends. Haha. Oh! Deviantart also!

However, I believe this one is my most private blog. I had a private blog on tumblr for awhile until I shared it with a couple of friends who also had tumblrs. So I guess it's not private anymore. Its a fun place, though.

Putting that aside, I'll be going to Hong Kong during July of 2012. I've always planned to do a missions trip to Thailand during the winter of 2012, but I believe that Hong Kong is calling to me. I'll be able to reach out to my people in my original country which is super exciting. I'll also be working under the Chinese government, so that's a bit thrilling also. Now all I gotta do is find a way to pay for my flight. Heh.

Going back to social networks, Facebook in particular, I've almost come to a point where I wanted to delete it. I'm so tired of getting random friend requests from people from my association. Some of them have never met me nor have they even spoken to me. There are many who have spoken to me once, but that doesn't count. The worst part is: they're teenagers mostly. Annoying teenagers who complain about everything and are consumed by their so-called "love-lives". Actually I think the thing that bothers me the most is people who are either really really blatant about their relationships or those who are really pessimistic in their statuses. Sure, I'm happy that you're in a relationship but do you have to let the world know that you're thinking/missing them in your status every frickin' minute?


You know, I kinda wonder why some of them are in relationships. Being happy in one status while breaking up a minute later. And then getting back together and then breaking up again in like 5 minutes. If it comes down to this, well, OBVIOUSLY Y'ALL ARE TOO IMMATURE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP.

As for those who are pessimistic, y'all just need to realize that you're fortunate enough to even be able to post your depressing status. There are villages in other countries where they only have ONE COMPUTER and DIAL-UP-LIKE INTERNET. Be more appreciative of what you have and don't take anything for granted.

Sorry for the random venting. But you know, sometimes, I just want to unfriend these people.

Since I'm just randomly venting, I'm just gonna end this with a letter I wrote to a guy:

Dear ________.

I don't talk to you anymore because I don't want to. We never had a friendship and we never will. I do not want to get to know you more because I am simply tired of trying to make new friends. I'd rather live comfortably knowing the friends I know right now rather than making new ones. Obviously, I have no interest in pursuing a friendship with you. I believe I've clearly made it clear that I do not want to hang out with you since I'm obviously uninterested. Will you please stop talking to me?

I hope you have a good day.