Saranghaneun Geudae

My favorite from T-ara are Eun Jung(Left) and Soyeon(center)

October 18, 2010

10:31 am

Sitting here in the cafeteria at my college and I love it. I know my group likes going to library and into one of the study rooms, but I personally love the environment of the cafeteria. There's so many people in here and they're always entertaining to watch.

I think it's just the presence of a mixed society that conforts me.

Don't get me wrong or anything, I love being in the study rooms with my friends but I'd rather be in the cafeteria. I love being surrounded by people. Not as the center of attention or anything but being around people makes me feel less lonely.

I feel less lonely when I'm alone in a place full of people I don't know.

2:30 pm

Back from class, a friend of mine actually sat down and talked to me. Well, I wouldn't call him a friend. He's more of like an aquantance.

Linguistics blows. It was really boring today. I forgot what we talked about but EH. Boring.

4:27pm

I'm finally alone to finish this blog. There's so many things going on in my head, it's so distracting. Actually, there really isn't anything going on in my head. There usually is, but I forget about them once I start thinking about them.

I want to see Mrs. Vuong. She's the only other person who makes me positive. David makes me happy but he's not around me all the time.

I want to eventually get really close to her. Close to the point where I'm just sharing to her the most personal things in my life.

A week after that one indecent, Mrs. Vuong called me and hired me to do some stuff for her class. I was really happy because I was able to be around her again. I don't remember when, but she mentioned how if I ever needed a place to just rest, I could come over to her place.

And I think I will.

I just need a break from my life because in all honesty, it's pulling me down. Cuz you know....

"I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired." -The White Tie Affair.

Procrastinating? I think so.

October 18, 2010

12:06 AM

It's past midnight and I still have yet to finish my research paper that's due tomorrow. Honestly, I love this class, but I just hate doing work in it.

And so, instead of writing my paper, I'm going to blog. About what? Well, I don't know. But I do know that I'm obsessing over two songs:

Beautiful World - Utada Hikaru

Bye Bye - T-ara.

I think the english lyrics get to me in the songs. For "Beautiful World":

I don't know what I want I just want it

and for "Bye Bye":

When I see you, I have to cry

How pathetic are those lyrics? Just thinking about them make me feel so pathetic and so negative.  I just want throw away any possible feelings of "love" I have and not worry about anything dealing with "love"

It's like high school all over again.

I'm so angry at myself for believing that there's a "love" out there for me.  I'm so angry for "falling" again. I'm so angry for listening to my emotions.

And even if there is a "love" out there, it isn't a "meant to be" or "soulmates" and all that bullsh-t. There's no such thing. 

Maybe he was right, I have lost faith in myself. 

Undefined my ass.

October 16, 2010.

The fairly noticable "undifined" thing on my page is kinda annoying. Actually, I think it's suppose to be the date but whatever. I'll post the date every time I post something.

It's been awhile and I promise to blog more...as soon as I finish my homework. I've actually been wanting to blog more hence the change of my page.

Btw, if you haven't seen the Sesame Street parody of the Old Spice Commercial, here it is:

Congrats, you know all about the word "on" now.

Seafood in moderation.

This whole week was like sushi week for me. I went to two sushi restaurants; Texwasabi on Arden and Futami on Freeport.

Abril might dislike me for this. I apologize in advance.

Monday was Jordan's birthday. We went to Texwasabi. If a cowboy and a traditional japanese person had a baby, Texwasabi would be the result. Except the baby is more cowboy like. The atmosphere there was very college-age/non-teen like. If you get what i mean. it was very...i dont know. haha. but yeah, the place had great sushi.

Saturday i went to Futami Japanese Restaurant. It was my friend's birthday so i went there to celebrate it. The place is really traditional. They had a tatami room equiped with the kotatsu tables and slide doors and everything. haha. it looked like this:

i think the tables are called kotatsu...i dont know.

The food was pretty good. Though i kinda got disgusted with all the sushi my friends ordered. I can't have too much seafood or i'll hurl. P: and i did! When i left the restuarant, i hurled in my mouth. ew. and then i swallowed it. HAHA. It wasn't the restaurant's fault. i just had too much seafood.

haha.

Today is also Jaci's birthday. i was invited to go to her birthday bash at Mikuni's, another Sushi place, but i decided not to go. I'd probably hurl like ferreal there. and i don't have any money, ATM. haha.

Happy birthday girls!

anyways, there's this cute girl at church. Her name is Elizamey. I probably spelled her name wrong but the way it's pronouced is the "Eliza" from "Elizabeth" and "May" put together. Isn't it such a cute name?! and she's soo adorable. haha.

she's only two or so years old. [=

She's soooo cute when she's playing in the playground. She'll go WEEEEEE to the simplest things. haha. so cute! XDD! She was going down a little little slide and she was all like WEEEEEEEEE. and on the swings she was all like.... WEEEEEEEEEE!!! xD

yeah.

i got a mosquito bite on my forehead. how lame is that? P:

poop.

i hate it when people guys flirt with me. > _>

concert week.

these next couple of days are basically concert days. yesterday, there was a choir concert. Tonight, there's going to be a vocal jazz concert and tomorrow there's gonna be a band concert. YEE! haha. there's plenty more but i don't remember.

i think i'm going to skip my last class to go to the vocal jazz concert. i really hate my class. xD

or like not go to my class. P:

choir concert was alright. this was our lineup:

Weeping Mary

Sumaguaza

I can sing till the spirit...

Go down moses

Ritmo

our best song was probably I Can Sing. i dont know hahah.

i really liked Sumaguaza. It's like a coming of age song where the kid/son is all like OH I DOn'T NEED MY MOMMA TO BE A MAN ANYMORE. [=

weeping mary was probably our worst. and ritmo too.

oh well. we'll get them ready for the next concert.

[=

For tomorrow's band concert, we're playing:

Salvation is created

Summon the heroes

Semper Fidelis

Tanczi

Universal Judgement.

yay. fun. haha.

my tummy burns. D:

bleh.

Well, let's see how much i can write in 5 minutes.

i'm going to go and pick up king and yowty soon.

hopefully yowty picks up his phone.

today at school, i found out that i passed my test. [=

and that my professor is still preggo!

some preggo people annoying.

especially the one in choir.

choir was alright. Greg, a student studying conducting/music/whatever, directed us today. dr. hughes went to his annual conference thingie so he was absent. O:

greg is too nice. really.

i just found out about more preggo stuff i didn't want to know about.

went to work today. some of the kids weren't there but oh well. taught piano to one of the girls. we played in the backyard. had grilled cheese sandwhiches and then i taught them a game that made them go PEW PEW PEWWWWW until their dad came and picked them up. xD

i have to pick up yowty now.

i think he had a tennis game.

according to donrico's(yowty's bff) foothill lost by like 1. D:!

4-5.

doesn't that sucK?

oh well.

bye!

'ello dar.

sup.

so let me tell you about my day.

it started with king and i waking up late. we left the house around...7:20am and arrived on campus at around 7:30ish. i was surprised that it didn't take us longer since it usually took us 15 minutes to get onto campus. maybe the traffic lights were all like:

'ey. today's ur lucky day. we'll go all green on you.

haha.

anyways, so i arrive to class late and my boring prof. just stares at me and continues to talk. she was talking about how our class average for the last test we took was about a D+. in my head, i was all like. oh, damn i'm one of those ppl who got the D+!

i was able to look at my score and i got an A on my exam. haha. and also got an A on my paper! GO ME! :'D

after this class i went off to the cafeteria to buy a snack so my tummy wouldn't growl in my next class: biological psychology, which is my favorite class. it seems like my body always wants to make weird noises in class. and i ALWAYs want to cough up mucus in there. it's kinda gross. haha

i think people are irritated by my coughing. BUT HEY, i can't help it if i have to cough, jerks. P:

so, class began and i was able sit closer to my professor, who i am so damn infatuated by. really. if he was younger, i would marry him. heck, if he wasn't married right now, i'd still marry him! haha..........

he lectured about different types of x-ray scans: CAT, PET, MRIs and FMRIs. yeah, i already learned this stuff since i took this class a couple of semesters ago, so i just stared at my prof. haha.

at the end of the class i bravely went up to him and asked if i could take a picture of lomo with him. you see, i brought lomo to class just so i could have a picture of my prof! hahaha.....i explained to him how we were doing a mission that included taking pictures of lomo everyday and all that junk. he said "Sure!" all happily, which melted my heart. hahahahhahahha...

aaaaaawwwwww, isn't he so adorable?! no,not lomo...hahaha.

i was so happy after i took the picture. i was so damn...giddy, smiling my way back to the cafeteria. i wanted to like scream and squeal but people would look at me weird. haha.....

after biopsych, i waited in the cafe for a few and went to my history group that ditched me yesterday. we have a presentation tomorrow so we just went over stuff we needed to go over.

study group → waitin' in cafe/deciding not to go to last class → band.

band was alright. there were many people who were absent including our first flute! eeee....even though i'm a first flute, i still don't know my parts. which is a shame. hahahaha.

but i was actually surprised at how much i knew!

maybe i should not rely on sarah much and force myself to actually work on this stuff.

i can play it... i just have to push myself. [=

my dad...

...is awesome.

he walked out of his mother's house in Laos during his teens and told her:

"...i am not coming back until i am educated, have a good job, have a family and have been to america."

20-30 some odd years later, we returned and father told g-ma:

"...i told you i would come back when i've done all these things."

Go dad!

Anti-Valentine Party.

i just noticed that i barely post on here. haha.

so today, april, alyssa and i went to the north hagginwood library(or whateve-it's-called-library) for an event. it was called the anti-valentine party.

but let me start with this morning.

women's history. prof. gave us all candy cuz valentines day is soon. and then we learned about women slaves and stuff.

i realized that if i sit in the back, i'll be really sleepy. however, if i sit near the front, i'll loose track of time and i'll be totally absorbed into the class. so maybe i should sit in the front more. i totally would for my biopsyc class if there were empty seats in the front. i wouldn't mind staring at dr. murakami throughout the whoooollleeeee class hour. ;D

after women's history: choir. choir was..interesting. i love the new building and all but the acoustics of the room is just crap. everything bounces off the walls since theres nothing to absorb/suffocate the sound it's hard to listen to the correct pitches.

it's the same with the band room. although, we do have mufflers. the room is to big or at least the ceiling is too high. so, there are some people who are just off by like...a millisecond.

which throws EVERYONE off.

anyways, back to choir. the alto section, MY SECTION, is so timid! heck, all of the women are so timid! our so-called forte is like.....a mezzo piano/forte in this one song. really. and most of us cannot find our pitches! especially the girl who was sitting next to me today. haha.

but the cool thing about her was that she's a foothill alumni class of '03. she was really nice and i was nice to her, even though she was completely off. and she knew she was off! haha. i need to work with her. Us foothill ppl need to help each other. XD

after choir i went to the cafeteria for a bit and left. i was suppose to go over to my friend's house so i could teach her grandchildren how to play the piano but i didn't. we apparently had some miscommunication so now i'm gonna start teaching them next week.

i went home. looked up some stuff online then headed off to 3 different libraries. i went to Sylvan Oaks to drop off a book. then i picked up abril and alyssa and went to Arcade library so i could check out a book. stayed there for like...2 minutes then we headed off to the North-Hagginwood one and had our so called party.

there were basically four of us there: abril, alyssa, this random kid and i. haha. we brawled then played ALONE(similar to bingo). i won something like...the first time. i got like this thingie....weird thingie. haha. we played our last game of ALONE and we all won a big heart pinata that we were suppose to break. they wouldn't let us break it inside so we took it outside and abril broke it with the first hit. xDDD

we got candy. :"D.

we went back inside for more brawl until the lady said the party was over. then she asked us if we were going to the other events sometime in march. i felt obligated to say yes...but i didn't P:

i think might go. the library is very small and i just feel obligated to just go and, i guess you can say, support it?

i dont know. [=

I LOVE DR. MURAKAMI.

ABRIL.

can't post comment on your blog.

so i'll do it here:


i wanted that picture of me in the bathroom. HAHA. xD;

...

in love with saint cupid. <3

I NEED...

ONE OF BUBBI'S SKIRTs.

IF I DON'T HAVE ONE...

I WILL NEVER BE GIRLY

EVER

AGAIN

THIS IS THE ONLY TIME I'VE WANTED A SKIRT THIS BADLY.

OH MY GOSH!

tik tok. [=